2016. A new year. New promises, new challenges and above all, new chances. No matter how much you've screwed up last year, this year you can do better. You can be the better version of yourself.
Or at least, that's what the media is trying to tell you ;). For me, the beginning of a new year is always a bit anticlimactic. You count down with sky high anticipation, just to see the clock go for another of its eternal rounds. The world does not chance, your body is still your body and your thoughts are still your thoughts. You simply celebrate to be alive and go to bed late and drunk.
However, I do like the day after, when the whole year is right at your feet and you get to choose what you do with it. In the end, it is you who chooses how you live your life. The world keeps on going, you just have to make the best of it. I feel like I've said this in so many of these blogposts already, but you should do what you want. Be true to yourself. Call or message that person if you feel like it. I think I keep mentioning it, because I still find it really hard to follow my soul. I care a lot about what other people think of me, even if I know that it's no use. Because of this, I haven't done all the things I wanted to do in 2015. These are not world-changing events i missed out on, but just the little things. For example, there have been nights where I have eaten dinner alone, while I had actually preferred to have dinner with a friend. The mere thought of making someone else decide whether they feel like spending time with you, whether you are worth their time, frightened me so much that I just did not give them the opportunity. This is ridiculous of course, because if someone else would ask me to have dinner with them or to hang or to whatever, I would most possibly say yes, unless I have something else planned or just really not feel like it, It will never be because of personal reasons that I'd decline, and I'm sure a lot of people act the same way.
This is why this year, I want to care less. This will be my only resolution of this year. Care less, and do what you want to do, no matter what other people will think. If you want to dye your hair, dye your freaking hair! No one will think less of you, and if they do, they are pathetic for doing so. Meet up with those people you want to see again, write to those friends you miss and tell them you miss them. Go like Nike and just do it.
I hope your 2016 will be filled with joy and laughter, with love and adventure. You deserve the best, and above all, you deserve to be true to yourself. You are amazing.
Janeri xxx
